Thirteen Reasons Why

WELL....haven't been on here for awhile. :) Been really busy with school and stuff but now that I'm on a break (which consists of SAT, Willy Wonka at least 3 times a week, Finals, Starting E.E., Learning to drive again, family stuff, financial garbage, having a severely broken heart, PMEs, World Lit Papers, and what-not). I finally got a chance to read something not required while simultaneously avoiding Akmatova journals (tehe!). I bought it like a week ago along with my E.E books (which I should start reading sometime soon...) and it finally arrived on Friday. I managed to finish the book today & my 10023840723984792 assessment statements that are due on Monday (wooop!) I feel mighty accomplished if I do say so myself...Anyways the book is 'Thirteen Reasons Why' by Jay Asher. Really interesting concept and story...and it helps that I'm slightly obsessed with suicide (Is that creepy? Okay well you can't deny people who commit suicide are interesting. Have you read Virginia Woolf's suicide note? If not here it is:
"I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel we can't go through another of those terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can't concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think two people could have been happier 'til this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that — everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been. V." Yeah I'm also obsessed with her. She's a great author though. One of her books 'Jacob's Room' has almost NO plot...its like the randomest things that are connected in an odd sort of way. Its kind of like when you find out two people you know know each other but you don't know that they know each other.)
Anyways, as usual some excerpts:

"If my love were an ocean,
there would be no more land.
If my love were a desert,
you would only see sand.
If my love were a star-
late at night, only light.
And if my love could grow wings,
I'd be soaring in flight" (I'm a hopeless romantic. This is so cute...really cheesy but cute)

"If you hear a song that makes you cry and you don't want to cry anymore, you don't listen to that song anymore. But you can't get away from yourself. You can't decide no to see yourself anymore. You can't decide to turn off the noise in your head" (God I know how that feels. Sometimes you just want to escape from yourself. From you memories and from your thoughts. Sometimes you just want to stop thinking about things but no matter what you can't...)

"Two people-me and him-one house. Yet he drove away with no idea of his link to me, the girl on the sidewalk. And for some reason, at that moment, the air felt heavy. Filled with loneliness. And that loneliness stayed with me for the rest of the night."

"His lack of interest was a reminder...You can't go back to how things were. How you thought they were. All you really have is now" (Carpe Diem)

"I wanted to tell you everything. And that hurt because some things were too scary. Some things even I didn't understand. How could I tell someone-someone I was really talking to for the first time-everything I was thinking?"

" 'The thing is,' I say, 'I never really missed her till now.' " (This I think was the focal point of it all. People never really realize how much a person effects their life until they are no longer in it, and then there is regret. They wished they had treated them better, wish they had done more. You only notice how great something is when its taken away from you. I think that's a part of most suicide's thoughts. You should learn a lesson from their death, so as self-ish as most believe them to be for not 'considering all the pain and suffering of those who care about them, for only considering their own feelings' they trying to make you see. They want to show you that you need to adjust your ways and you need to appreciate those you care about because what may seem like something insignificant in your eyes could be the final straw for them.)

"A lot of you cared, just not enough. And that...that is what I needed to find out."



Overall great book. I mean it wasn't the BEST thing ever. There were a lot of concepts I wanted the author to address in more detail and make more understandable to the reader but it is a teen novel (can't expect too much psychological depth...then it would be a different genre. No offense to teen novels or anything). I'm probably going to be posting poems next but I have to flip through the books to decide which ones I love the most. Maybe Wuthering Heights will be in here soon too (maybe...that one's kind of time consuming :/)