Perhaps you've misunderstood

“You can do so much better…” We’ve both heard that from many sources and know that many more have silently thought it throughout the time we spent together. I even told you that I can, but perhaps you didn’t realize that so can you. There will ALWAYS be better. Smarter, funnier, skinnier, nicer, richer, faster, more charismatic, those who will be better mothers/fathers, better musicians, better in bed, better boyfriends/girlfriends…better than me, better than you. But this is where love comes in. You don’t love someone because they are the best by anyone else’s standards. You love them for who they are flaws and all. Love means choosing that ONE person ut of the billions of people in the world, not because they are the best you can get, but because they are the only one you want. If the most amazingly perfect person fell from the heavens and offered you the most wonderful future you can imagine, you would decline in a second because of love. You’re willing to do whatever it takes to be with that person. You compromise, you fight but you do whatever it takes to work it out because being without them isn’t worth anything you can possibly think of….You work together, you forgive, you help them when they fall down.…Even when it feels like the entire world is against you, is just waiting for you to fail, having that one person on your side, knowing that they love you and that they will always love you no matter what happens, it can pull you through the most difficult moments in life. I’m not sure if you know what that feels like, but it kept me alive. No matter how bad things got, I always had your love. You can laugh as much as you want, you can ignore it, you can call me pathetic, but it is what it is. You made me feel good enough (for the first time in my life), you made me feel as though by holding on, things would eventually be okay. I honestly don’t know what will happen now that I no longer have that feeling of hope, of being loved no matter what, but I am sorry. I’m sorry if I never gave you that feeling. I’m sorry if I ever made you feel inadequate. Know that more than anything, you were always and will always be my Prince Charming, my gift from above, my angel in disguise. I love you more than anyone and anything. I hope one day you will understand that feeling and understand just how much I care.